17 Steps, Remembering Tim

Dusted this off from the ‘oldies’ file ~ My neighbor, a man afflicted with schizophrenia, passed away some years ago just days before Christmas.  The loss was unexpected by me, hit me hard…I miss him deeply.


Carried by angels

A man left this place today

Silent, as I worked

Just seventeen steps away—

Now mere echo, fluttered wings.

Son of low status

His potential stolen by

Brain’s short-circuitry

Abandoned, yet much valued

Soul I cared for, prayed to keep.

Just seventeen steps

No stony, hard-travel road

Why could the angels

Not have gathered me as well

Bid me quick return to Thee?

Lord Almighty, breathe

Your Spirit on me anew

Thaw this heart, iced by

Disillusionment, mistrust—

Or, call me now…Home, to You.

©Rhen Laird/Cobbled Contemplations, 2020 ~ All rights reserved.

14 thoughts on “17 Steps, Remembering Tim

    1. Thank you so much, Joni. Tim was one of the special “least of these” Jesus talks about–and I’m blessed that God moved me to be the “somebody” with courage enough to set aside what’s difficult and give what friendship was possible, considering Tim’s limitations. Truly, I miss him everyday–but I look forward very much to seeing him again one day with his fully healed mind. He used to take the bus to church by himself, so I know He’s with Jesus. Much love and blessings to you today 💕

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  1. A glorious poem Rhen , your very intimate story, has brought me to tears, and resonates powerfully with my own personal experiences… Thank you for your kindly making the effort to resurrect this golden oldie 💙🌏☺️


    1. Bless your heart, Ivor–I’m so glad and grateful you moved me to look for my poem and post it. It’s a blessing to share the blogging experience with you 🙂 Take care of yourself ❤


    1. Hi Gina, thank you so much for your lovely comment. His story is one of tragedy, yet redemption–as disabled as he was, he managed to take the bus to church by himself each Sunday. So I will see him again ❤ Blessings to you–so glad you're here ❤

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      1. That hope is what keeps me going too. Lovely to read your heartfelt work Rhen. He sounds someone who made an impression on you on many levels.


        1. Your comments are such a blessing, thank you, Gina. The experience of knowing Tim was pivotal in my faith-walk. He was totally alone and I felt such distress–I remember saying, amid my neighbors, “Somebody needs to help Tim”. They all looked at me like I was crazy–but then I heard God’s voice so clearly, “You are Somebody”. And thus began my YES–I invited him to dinner at holidays, brought him food frequently. He didn’t speak much, so our connection was quite subtle. And when I would hear him screaming at the tormenting voices in his head, I would phone him and just ask if he was okay–and it would break the schizophrenic “circuit”, giving him peace for the rest of the night. It was the Lord, totally, I was just a cooperative instrument. Tim enriched my relationship with God.

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          1. Thank you for sharing this. I am sure there were moments of doubt and confusion but when we stay still the Spirit’s Promoting is clear and precise. What a lovely gesture from you, no more than lovely, no more good enough to describe how you must have enriched his life. Just being there for someone is hugely enough. You are a sweet soul.


            1. Thank you kindly, but I really can’t take credit–it felt like it “just happened”, according to the Lord’s leading. The day I watched his body being removed was the Worst! I’m so eager to see Tim again in Heaven–when he will be healed and whole! 🙂

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